Babies!

I am off birth control, but Kyle and I are not really trying to have a baby yet. We will officially start trying to have a baby in December. The reason that we are waiting until December is because I will be graduating with my masters in August of 20o9. Kyle and I have both agreed that if we get pregnant right away then we will have the baby right before or right after I graduate. Sounds like a good plan, right? Well this month I have not had a visit from "mother nature". I got a little excited/scared and took three pregnancy tests and they were all negative. Which is fine!! But, it got me thinking about actually having a baby. I guess reality struck that in a month or so Kyle and I could be pregnant with a little baby. A little life that God entrusted to us to raise, pray for and help through this CRAZY life. How scary! Even though I know that I will be pregnant whenever God's timing is perfect it is still a scary time for us. I get to see how fun motherhood is through all my friends and family who have little kiddos. What I don't see is all the stuff behind closed doors. So many questions like how much a child costs, what do I do if he/she NEVER stops crying! I know these are just super silly thoughts that go through your head when there is a fear of the unknown. I am sure that all you mothers out there are thinking this girl has no idea! And you would be right, I have no idea!!

So, pray for us as we begin this scary chapter in our lives. Pray that we will not be defeated every month that we are unsuccessful, pray that trying to conceive a child does not take over our lives and most of all pray that GOD'S will be done and not OUR will!!!!!

Thanks!!!!!